It seems like more and more my life is filled with these moments. That moment when you’re whole mind is full of the word ‘REALLY?’ and you can’t really get past it. Can’t think or speak or anything… just stand there with a slack jaw and stare. I thought you should hear of a few I had today.

A couple of nights ago, I told you that the world had lost a young lady who had survived so much as a child.. Over the last couple of days, I’ve hurt and ached each time I look at my own child because I see her life and I ache for a dad’s loss of his own baby girl. I got a call this morning and I find out she’s alive. The girl DID NOT DIE. The ex wife just decided to be a bitch. (excuse the factual language!) I was stunned and it was a horrible and wonderful REALLY? moment.

I can not (no matter how hard I’ve tried) think of a moment that I could be so cold, calculating, and callous to someone by telling them their child has died. I have had some really bad things happen to me and there were people that were solely responsible for my pain. I could not do that to them either. They deserve worse and I could never do it. Despicable woman! It’s ignorance like this that gives women in general a bad rap. But believe me, not all women are so ignorant!

That was my first REALLY? moment of the day.

A couple of moments after that call came in (we were at IHOP for breakfast), a couple was seated at a table behind Mark and directly in my line of vision. The man wasn’t facing me and had to turn his head completely to the side to look at me. The entire time he was there, he did just that. Stared. REALLY? Not just at me though, at Mark, Kaitlynn, and me. REALLY? It was all I could do to keep my cool and I tried really hard to outright ignore him. I don’t want to be stared at the entire time I eat. REALLY??

A waitress was at the table to my right and slightly behind me, she was outgoing and friendly. I was impressed by her conversation because waitressing (yes waitress!) is a lost art. She knew her business (so I thought). After the friendly and welcoming conversation says ‘Would you all like some hot tea or juice this morning?’ The lady says ‘No thank you, I’d like coffee.’ The waitress turned away LOL. The man didn’t even get to say anything! She didn’t acknowledge the woman had spoke at all and her movement was so oddly placed, I turned to see what had happened to cause her to turn away. Nothing. She was just servicing another table. The lady was left with that slack jawed look and I got tickled… it clearly said REALLY? She did look up at me and said ‘Annnnd she’s gone.’ LOL REALLY??

As we finished up our meal, (yes this was a long meal full of weird moments lol) my friendly staring stalker finally looked away! I had a flash of relief to NOT be stared at and wondered if the table that he was staring at was even aware of the eyes on them. Before I could even breathe a sigh of relief he turned back to our table, and this time I came close to losing my cool. Kaitlynn had stood up at the corner of the table (this isn’t unusual after we finish a meal). This creep was staring at her butt. I don’t mean glance and look.. I mean lips parting, eyes roaming curves stare. I had a flush of anger come over me so strong that I very nearly barked ‘Let’s go, now!’ I finally got my crew shuffling towards the door and that blessed word kept resounding in my head… REALLY? I mean come on man, I’M RIGHT HERE! How disgusting are you to stare at a child’s bottom with the parents standing right there..disgusting and gutsy I guess.. REALLY???

The rest of our day was relatively uneventful. We went on to Cabela’s and then headed back to Burlington to hit Sears. As we were leaving, we realized we had to go to Redbox still and decided to just go into Anacortes. So, we go to Walgreens (the closest redbox) and then to Safeway. At Safeway, I remembered at the register that I needed elbow macaroni in order to make my famous goulash for dinner.

We headed back to the pasta aisle. The store was super crowded and I was glad to see I had a straight shot to the noodles! I grabbed the noodles and put them in the cart. Mark took the cart and turned to head back to the front. I was standing Kaitlynn’s width from the side of the aisle because she’d squeezed between me and the shelf in order to ask me a question. I was looking down at her when WHAM!! My right arm was hit and pushed completely behind me! I jerked around thinking someone HAD to be hurt or dying in order to do something like THAT. Wrong! A woman was just walking by me. REALLY? I’m sorry I didn’t realize I was standing there! She had over a foot of clearance on the OTHER side of her… why was it necessary to hit me? And then to keep walking without even an up yours or move or screw you or I’m sorry? REALLY??

When we climbed back into the truck, I let out a sigh of relief that was louder than I intended. Mark asked if I was okay lol. I said yes, but inside I was just thinking how freaking glad I would be to get home!! So that for the whole rest of the night I wouldn’t have to think…. REALLY?

And then I remembered I still had to come home and post for NaBloPoMo………………… REALLY?!?!?!?